Saturday, February 13, 2010

What's next?

Photo by Old Sarge

I've been feeling very strongly that I need the next "big thing" to happen. Be it moving to another state, changing my job, or going on some kind of adventure. And by adventure I mean that I'm thinking of visiting the strange and faraway place called MAINE. Ohhhh... scary. For realz, I really want to see Portland, Maine. It seems like the place for me, not sure why, but I've grown obsessed with it. I keep wondering if it will be my next home.

So in this spirt of moving on, I'm working on some kind of momentum towards my goals. Step 1: Finishing my portfolio and CV resume to hand off to my contact at an architectural firm in Chicago. It may not be the job for me (plus I do really want to move out of this area) but at least I'm getting it out there and seeing what kind of response I get. I got this started last weekend and I plan on finishing it this weekend. For me, this is one step closer to at least trying to make some big changes in my life. It's something that has been hanging over my head for a while and once it's done and out of my hands, I can move onto Step 2; meet with my school counselor and research more design jobs outside of the midwest.

Taking these steps and figuring out a plan for my future makes me a little anxious. I want so badly to get closer to my goals, but doing that makes them real and when they are real they are that much more vulnerable. What if it doesn't work out? What if I don't get a job outside of Chicago? What if I get my dream job and I don't like it?! All this is scary stuff.

But I know that I have to try, because I don't want to waste my time wondering, "What if...?" If this breakup has taught me anything, it's that I can't just wonder about what might happen, I have to go for what I need, or want, and see how it pans out. Good or bad, at least I tried and that's so much better than safely wondering about what might happen while life passes me by. Good or bad, reality is so much better.

And so, I have to make these goals real and give it a shot. Perhaps publicly posting my intentions on this blog will make my future plans tangible and will hold me to them. Or at least I hope...

So, Dear Followers of my humble blog, have you begun thinking of the next big thing in your life? Are you working towards any specific goals right now? How's it going? Are you feeling motivated or anxious? Or both?! I'd love to know...

P.S. Doesn't Portland, Maine look dreamy? After I've done some job research, I'm going to reward myself with a trip to Portland. I simply must find out why I'm so crazy about a place I've never been!

Photos by acadia62


  1. I SO know what you mean here! I am also considering the wheres and the what nexts, and I too am feeling very nervous about it all. I love the pictures of Portland, and I can see why you're in love with it. I can't wait to see if you feel at home when you visit!

  2. OMG I love Portland. Been there several times and actually have pictures of that same lighthouse and boat area. It was only 30 min from where I visit always in NH.

  3. Thank you capclassique! I cant wait to visit this place, something in my subconscious is telling me I must go there, but who knows? Maybe what's next is something I never expected. Good luck figuring out your what's next and keep us posted!

  4. Shannon, you love Portland?! Thats so cool. I cant wait to go and report back to you guys.

  5. I like how you are going to just "see what response" you get... that attitude, and tremendous effort without sight of a huge rewards, is very rare.

    I must say I am slacking on my goals... but this helped inspire me to get back into it. I was working on a novel, but I lost the momentum, hence I am now blogging everyday to get back into the habit. Small step but it's a journey that needs some preparation.

    And GO TO MAINE! I have the same fascination with San Fran... no idea why but since I was young I used to say I might live there one day... I DIDNT EVEN KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT IT, NOR HAVE I YET TO GO... some places just call you... they choose you!



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